Nano Punishment

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I walk down the street we walked on numerously
not with you, but with other women
holding hands, walking.

As you can see, i'm well, i'm fine.
You can see that light
Ah, the red light in my heart has turned green
Baby, go there
Please, don't bother me
go there, go!
Do you think i'm still dwelling in the past, girl?
That you miss me, i'm sorry
that fool is no longer here.
If you want my body,
if you want to stop by,
call me, baby.
Love Love
I'll allow that time, ok.
I'll love you, ok.

I'll love you every time
why don't you know, baby?
Did you miss me?
The dead one, me?
It is the end now.
I watched you after it was over,
I still remember your walking back,
I pray you come back to me.
you, i wait.

That fool is no longer here.
If you want my body,
if you want to stop by,
call me, baby.
Love Love
I'll allow that time, ok.
I'll love you, ok.

Everything has changed.
This street too, has changed.
Let's turn the clock back together.
Why don't you came back?
What more do you want from me?
You will be abandoned
You are my toy to play with,
sick of you, it's over, ah, go!
you know, go there, go!
Do you think i'm still dwelling in the past, girl?
That you miss me, i'm sorry
that fool is no longer here.
If you want my body,
if you want to stop by,
call me, baby.
Love Love
I'll allow that time, ok.

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Just a little sharing. I'm so in love on how the ego of the persona is expressed in this song. He's hurt but trying to move on. He's still hanging on a thin hope but trying to be more defensive for himself and let go. He make threats and sarcasms yet still in love. To me, this is just a struggle of someone who is still hanging on the past but trying hard to move on. The thought of hate is the best armor still cannot changes the heart that is used to love and be kind. At last, fact is fact. We face it and just do anything that we could.


Default Mode

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Hello, peeps! How're you all?
Me? I'm fine. But a bit mess up. Haha
Why? Because midsem break is over!!

My head starts getting dizzy now.
It seems there are a lot of work to do already.
Assignment, final year project, assignment, and more up coming assignments.
I'm still trying to reset myself now.
My student mode still lagging lol.

Thinking about tomorrow,
it feels like I'm losing half of my fully charged battery.
On Monday, I have two classes like usual. 2 hours each.
During break or free time, I may working on my assignment then.
The next day, I may have another weekly presentation.
I checked on the notes just now. Ugh!! I don't get any of it.
Which means I have to study it more and more and more more more!!
Yet now I just want to lie down and being lazy.

Cannot think more. I will just keep thinking of the same things tho.
I only wish and pray that this second half of the semester will be good and better.
I hope I will remain good too. My mental, my health. Inshaallah.
Now, I start to feel nervous. Phewww

Till here, may our day will be better day by day.
Thank you for coming and reading this.
Good luck!
xoxo =)

so what if i fell, if i bleed myself and catch in pain, gasp for air and choke in is just me trying to keep up with this unfamiliar survive the fight that is impossible to retreat.


New Taste

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Hello, readers! It's a night post, again. Haha
How was your day? Here, it was raining since afternoon until evening.
So now it is quite cold and chill. I like it tho.
Remember? I love gloomy and rainy days.

Today, I went out with my aunt. Used to call her Mak We. She always asking me out every time I was at home. And I could not find any good reason to reject. Techincally, I don't know how even though at times I don't feel to go anywhere even a step out from my room, huu.

Okay. That is for the intro. That is not what I want to write about tonight. What I want to write about is already stated in the title. Yes, recently I kinda have new taste. I mean, tastes.

Obviously, you all know and can see that I am a kpoper. I enjoy groupy singers who are dancing and being ecstatic on the stage. Kpop itself make me interested more with Korea including its language, traditions, lifestyle, people, fashion, thoughts, and etc. Not to get myself randomly exposed and influenced by its negativity but to understand or at least to get me familiar with one of this world diversities.

Besides that, Kpop also make me open my ears to listen more to songs and music. Not just for its entertainment purpose but also for its hidden messages from those lyrics and melody. I am absolutely not a musician. But I am a good listener. My ears always ready to hear, especially for things that some common people don't have will to hear.

As whole, Kpop make me want to explore more and more. Hear more and more. Until at one time, I stopped at this one youtube channel named WLK. During that time, to me WLK was kind of a strange channel. It was a channel that uploaded hundreds of video songs. But the songs were not songs that I used to listen to. Yet, I got hooked by it. And I am still.

Since then, I finally knew, " this is it." This is it. Songs that used to give me that 'morning dew' or 'midnight chill' vibe whenever I listen to it. Those echos, beats, studio sounds, husky but still soft, calm like a small lake but still deep, soft and strong. Ahh, so this is what Korea R&B sounds like. Like I said, I'm not a musician. I just listen, to anything that make me feel good. But because of this one youtube channel, I finally get familiar to it.

This genre is so much different than my Kpop thing. Kpop, it is like action movies that make you sweating and crying at times. Yet this Korea R&B, it is like silent movies that cause you to have cold feet for its unscripted stories but still get you to follow it until the end. Mysterious and beautiful at the same time.

That's why, I feel glad knowing WLK. Plus, this channel actually trying to pave way for those underrated artists. To me that is so genuine. Plus plus, most songs that I have listened from this channel are very good and artistic. Don't mind the language. I can feel the artists' efforts, emotions, and all they had put into the song. Today, a few names already stacked in my head such as Kream, JayMin, Clad, June, Villain, and G.Nine. I enjoy their voices and songs very very much.

To me, this is still miraculous. I don't expect to groove at this genre other than Kpop. Not to compare. Practically, there is nothing to compare. Both genres are actually good and strong. Unique and independent. Artistic in its own way. Maybe I have mentioned this before or maybe not, other than my talent in drawing I actually pretty attach to art including music, specifically the sound of music.

Till here, that is all about my new taste.
To make it longer, my new music taste.
No no no I'm not throwing Kpop away haha.
Anyway, thank you for coming and reading this.
So what is your preferred music? Anything that you attach to?
Do comment okay. Good night.
xoxo =)

"If I had a pair of wings, I would have left here with you,
place where have no pain and wounds" - Kream


Sweet November

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Hello, people! How was your day today?
I hope it good. Even if it wasn't, I hope you're still good.
Inshaallah. Tomorrow will be a better day.

For tonight post, I would like to share a bit about my hanging out day with my best friends today. The opening was a breakfast at RailwayCoffee before we took off to shopping mall to have survey on Popular haha. Our very first intention was just to smell the books. Yet two of my friends did bought stuffs at the book shop.

After that, we were just randomly walking around the area of karaoke until we started to randomly being curious over claw pets and more arcade games at the area. The blue rm started to change into token and tokens. We ended up playing around with the arcades even those which actually for kids play. Would like to mention, this was our very first time in our very first sweet 22 playing those stuffs lmao.

Next, we finally went to the karaoke. We actually were waiting for the happy hour, which offered one hour free. That make it two hours for us to spend, haha. Room 21, we entered, where everyone started to be hysterical and losing voices and ended up using falsetto like dying donkeys, bwahahahaha. The last song was Pesan by Irfan Haris booked by me, we sang well for the closing tho, hehe. No mention two rounds for I Will Show You by Ailee during those two hours, huhu. It was a kpop song with high harsh notes, pheww.
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p/s: not this bad i mean worst tho. those men were all absolutely possessed lmao
Out from the karaoke, everyone was on mute mode lol. Also, we were all prepared for luncheonnnn! No thinking back and forth, kfc was the very first resort. We went to another mall where it was located. It wasn't like the previous mall doesn't have it. Let's say, we were intentionally wasting fuel and polluting the air, keke. Make order, order finished, eat eat eating time!

Then, here came the membawang session. Rommates, lecturers, courses, uniform training; as for me sispa and the other friend is palapes, crushes, siblings and more. Most of the time, like usual, like always, I enjoyed listening to their talks and stories. One of the impressive moments was, I quite talkative with this one friend which we both were actually used to categorized as passive best friends. Formerly, originally, we didn't talked a lot to each other since school like random useless unbeneficial talks. But today, we were quite talkative that make the other two friends kept teasing us, hee.

Done eating and talking, we were ready to back home. How fast time passed. From 9.00 am, it was finally 4.00 pm. Despite of that, we did had a lot like very too much laughs, jokes, and fun. Just with whom would I being and felt like this. I like my smile the most when I was with them. Because I knew how genuine my feeling was whenever they were with me. It took me 14 years to have this very precious friendship and now it closed to a decade worth. I'm so married to them.

Sweet november, sweet grilfriends, sweet twenty two!
Everyone have their stories, their scenes, their black and white. So do I. That's why I'm so into them. Back then, when I didn't had this thing called true friend, I was quite anti to this life and world. Question after question, just to burn this life with hatred. Until I met these three angels. No wings, no halos, just hearts and honesty. Alhamdulillah. I wish this friendship will last longer and longer until forever. Oh no! I'm about to have snot, haha.

Oh my! this is not a little sharing. too long already. ha-ha ha-ha

Till here, thank you for reading this.
I pray your realtionship and friendship are and will be good too.
No rush. No harsh. You'll meet your angel soon or later.
Good luck!
xoxo =)

Nothing is just another counting. Because when I'm with you,
even everything becomes uncountable.


Ugly Flower

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it's hurt when it's hurt
i have no mean to cover it up
but it's ugly when it's hurt
that wound, it's ugly
hurt more and more

it's hurt how your sharp eyes judging me
it's hurt how your soft whispers cursing me
it's hurt when it's hurt
i have no mean to cover it up
but the wound is opened again

it's hurt no matter how good i handle it
the wound stings my chest, burns my head
gasping for air when i'm still breathing fine
grab on thin spirit that only left
it's hurt when it's hurt

i'm the one who with thorn
i'm the one that is rotten
i'm the ugly and wounded living
why you have to cut on my root
why you have to torn my growing petals
it's hurt when it's hurt
i'm hurt and wounded.



Goodbye midsem break! Hello, life! Be nice to me, please =p -11/11/2018-