New Habit

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**it's just a bunch of fucked up gentlemen. DON'T IGNORE LOL
Hello, peeps! Apa khabar semua ?
Hmm lamanya tak ranting kat blog ni.
Puisi sokmo ja. Well, it's the mood lol

So the very first ranting post for this february is titled as above. Yup. I think I had gained a new habit. Kalau tak silap, since last semester lagi. When I only had this one class at the end of day. And I started to feel rimas when I thought I had to bring this one thing with me all the time.

What is this thing?


Yes. Farahin rasa malas dan rimas nak bawa beg ke kelas. Why? Because tak ada function pun. If I have to jot down anything during lecture, sebatang pen dan sekeping A4 pun dah cukup. Tu pun kalau agak2 tertinggal dalam kelas, all notes are online and I can just revise them right on time on my phone if I have to lol. During lab pula, dah tentu menghadap mac gergasi tu. Buat latihan, any programming or editing semua on komputer. If a pen is needed, that is only when to sign the attendance huhu.

Actually, I have a worst thought to not bring anything except a pen. And I had done this once or twice but it was very awkward because I was so kosong sehelai sepinggang lmao. I jotted down anything on phone, I calculated everything on phone, I revised the notes on phone. Sounds crazy, right?

I tried to hold back this strange habit. But I ended up did it today. Farahin cuma ada dua kelas every monday. Pagi satu lecture, petang satu lab. So for this lab today, Farahin datang kosong dengan pen sebatang and buku nota kecik hadiah dari lecturer semester lepas sebab perform kahoot haha. Itu pun tak ada function sangat. Like I mentioned above. Everything is done on computer.

So, what do you think?
I am a computer student.
and I have this crazy thought to utilize everything like
phone, computer, internet, and sort of those things
as long as it is helpful dan tak merimaskan for me.
Is this a BAD attitude? Just wondering lol.

Until here, thank you for coming!
May you have a good rest tonight.
xoxo =)


I'll be OK

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**this poem is inspired from this song. HERE
I'll be ok
don't bother,
this worry will goes away
I'll be ok
even when you're not here,
i won't be so lonely

i did good even though this life went harder
i went backed on my two feet,
wounded and trembling
alone like this, it never matter

I'll be ok
your good words will pass like wind
blow this wounds and pains away
I'll be ok
even when you're not here,
i won't be so lonely

your yesterday goodbye still lefts me hanging
this choking feeling seems don't want to let go
no, don't come back but why don't you bring this pain along

I'll be ok
don't bother, this worry will goes away
alone like this, it never matter
even when death is calling
i will keep the last breath strong



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Image result for moonlight at sea gif black and white
sunrise greets the morning
what tomorrow is now today
though last night eyes won't shut

today, green and bright
yet last night still awake in mind
counting on breath so lungs won't shut

laying down, facing the wall
dull white with unknown stains
old and cold yet rough

today, back to this room
last night mess still bugging the head
untidy, too much to deal

let's just get the eyes shut.


It Is

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staring at an empty frame
picture a picture
yet no color is spilled
no shape is drew

is there anything wrong?
i know there is something wrong
the sounds of my shaking heart
the breath that difficultly reached the lung
something is absolutely wrong

the cold is not from the wind
the pain is not from the wound
staring at the empty frame
beautiful but hollow
it is, is it me?

staring at an empty frame
picture a picture
white wall, dark mind
it is, it is me


A Single Person

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Image result for dark city lights
the bright city beneath the dark sky
a running river is crying over the stone
windy night and a cold seat
hands are wrapping around
yet the heat never comes

dark silhouette under the dim lamp
fireworks blow the air yet head still down
noise after noise becomes noises
silent tongue but not my mind
tip of toes are turning blue

will it be raining tomorrow?
remember of the old umbrella
leaning against the dull wall
it had been lost since when i started to forget
a single person just walking pass.



we're all stars that brightens each other starlight a little bit better for the better -07/05/2020-