Triggered

Assalamualaikum...

Hi, peeps! Long time not posting ha.

Well direct je dengan tajuk post hari ni.

Triggered. Yes. I was triggered.

Now Farahin dah masuk tahun 3.

Yup. Senior Year.

Lecturer banyak sentuh pasal alam pekerjaan.

Dah tak ada manja-manja or main suap-suap.

Again. I was triggered.

Farahin dah nampak jalan nak menuju ke alam pekerjaan tu.

Tapi Farahin still tak nampak apa yang ada kat depan sana.

Gelap dan buat seriau je.

Yes. My comfort zone was triggered.

Angan-angan yang previously macam hangat-hangat taik ayam

now macam ada bau hangit-hangit gitu.

Buat Farahin tak senang duduk.

Someone would say,

eloklah comfort zone tu triggered.

Kiranya masih ada harapan.

But i am not feeling really good here.

Talking about being professional

gave me emotional impact.

Farahin ragu-ragu dengan diri sendiri.

Somehow I feel like I have nothing to show off.

Yet I know I have something.

Bila Introvert asyik disebut-sebut

macam virus liar berjangkit oleh lecturer,

Farahin rasa a bit down.

Yes. I am an introvert.

Half of my life till today,

I was struggling to not

let my introvert side being show.

Yet tahulah ada masanya kita pun rasa penat.

Kadang-kadang kita rasa macam hipokrit.

But you know,

Farahin tak buat semua ni sebab desperate.

It just I want to teach myself something. Slowly.

But never expect that it would be very long.

Somehow, I am lost here.

how many lies, how many acts
that i have to keep, just to be in contact