Shut

sunrise greets the morning

what tomorrow is now today

though last night eyes won't shut

today, green and bright

yet last night still awake in mind

counting on breath so lungs won't shut

laying down, facing the wall

dull white with unknown stains

old and cold yet rough

today, back to this room

last night mess still bugging the head

untidy, too much to deal

let's just get the eyes shut.

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It Is

staring at an empty frame

picture a picture

yet no color is spilled

no shape is drew

nothing

is there anything wrong?

i know there is something wrong

the sounds of my shaking heart

the breath that difficultly reached the lung

something is absolutely wrong

the cold is not from the wind

the pain is not from the wound

staring at the empty frame

beautiful but hollow

it is, is it me?

staring at an empty frame

picture a picture

white wall, dark mind

it is, it is me

nothing

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A Single Person

the bright city beneath the dark sky

a running river is crying over the stone

windy night and a cold seat

hands are wrapping around

yet the heat never comes

dark silhouette under the dim lamp

fireworks blow the air yet head still down

noise after noise becomes noises

silent tongue but not my mind

tip of toes are turning blue

will it be raining tomorrow?

remember of the old umbrella

leaning against the dull wall

it had been lost since when i started to forget

a single person just walking pass.

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Home

quiet house with lights out
empty bed with cold pillow
this reality is more like nightmare
tears are now dried but not the sorrow

dark is not just night
day is not anymore bright
fine I'm all alone
guess no need to wait anymore

let's walk the dream
drag the pain all my own
because you're not here anymore
keep hiding and let me keep searching

let me breath your name for each take
let me burn in this hellish feeling
let me feels home again.

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New Semester Is Back

Assalamualaikum...

Hello, peeps! How're you doing?

It's finally the new semester.

And I still don't give a proper greeting to 2019 and January lol.

It was both good and quite anxious start.

I had to struggle on three last mini projects
before the previous semester ends.

As the semester break coming closer,
I was quite excited celebrating the end of my sweet 22.

Bought myself a stuffed pillow aka plushie which I never had even one.

Also I set my sweet-tooth monster free, let her enjoyed her good time
with a piece of Blueberry Cake and Big Apple donuts. Quite rare snacks to me.

And then when the final exam result was out, I got an unexpected grade.

Bless all the kind-hearted lecturers, I got to have
Pointer 3 on the paper. Alhamdulillah.

And after a two weeks break, today is the first day of my eighth semester.

Supposed I have a class today but I still don't get the mood lmao.

So here I am being scratchy scratchy on my blog
with choki choki hanging at the end of my mouth lol.

By the way, for this semester I only have three courses to attend.

Wish I can do it good for this semester too.

Yet I am all nervous thinking about my final year project. Uh!

Until here, thank you for passing by
and read this short ranting of my boring life.

All the best to you guys! Oh, and Happy (Chinese) New Year!

xoxo =)

A song for you all hehe. Enjoy!

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