Buzzy Lazy

Assalamualaikum...

Hello, peeps! How're you feeling these days?

Me? Clearly as mentioned in the title, I am buzzy lazy.

I'm busy. But also lazy at the same time. Lmao

This whole week, it's a kind of holiday. Because all my classes are done so there will be no lectures or labs anymore. However, next week will be kind of nerve wrecking. All presentations and report submission for mini projects will be due. Yet still, here me sneaking out from the hellish student's life and being scratchy scratchy on my blog. Hehe. There are still a lot more to be done but I just don't feel to switch my robot mode on.

Okay. Let's not talk about those mini projects and their fella reports. I'm here mean to have fun and being lazy. Let me tell you a story of a young officer aka Leftenan Muda Nurfarahin. Yeah, me. It was a two weeks old story though. Hahahaha

So, two weeks ago, on Wednesday, supposed I was on duty to take care of the morning role call and evening training. Unfortunately, I read my timetable wrong so I was absent during that morning role call. Just at the evening, I noticed my mistake. While that time, the evening training already started about 45 minutes ago.

Yes. I was at fault. I was clumsy. I was at blame. And for anyone who make mistake, guess it's normal to feel nervous for some reasons. So did I. I was thinking either should I just skipped the evening training and let the other young officer who volunteered to replace me that day. But I remembered one thing, all the way me went back to my dorm from a talk that I attended, I remembered my parent used to asked when will I on duty? Have I started my duty?

Somehow, remembering those questions putted my mind to sane. If I skipped that evening training, that would be a disappointment to my parent. Not just that. It will shows an immature and irresponsible me as a young officer. Obviously, not a good image for the trainees.

At last, I sped up to my room and changed my clothes and ran down again to the training place. I was an hour late since the training started. And I only had at least 45 minutes left for my duty. Anyway, I patted myself for my decision. It wasn't that big but I knew I did something right. Sometimes, we don't have that opportunity to make things back to right but we can stop it from being a bigger mistake. That's what I think. You guys should do so to yourself. Don't blame yourself all the time. Because people make mistakes, young or old no matter. The matter is what we learned from those mistakes.

Till here, guess enough for now.

Thank you for your visit!

Bubye =)

Pain over pain does not works the healing.

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Was Hectic, And Still

Assalamualaikum...

Hola! Apa khabar kengkawan semua?

Ya Allah what a celebration when Farahin dapat conteng2 dekat blog ni.

Hectic sangat dengan final year project.

Sampai supervisor pun sanggup stay dekat office till night

demi student dia yang slow seorang ni.

Nak nangis rasa bila jumpa supervisor semalam.

Muka ketat, jantung debo, Farahin lah tu.

Tapi dia rilek2 je. Cakap pun elok2 je. Sempat borak lagi.

I was like, Ya Allah! Baiknya sv aku ni. Terharu sangat.

Actually, I was done with everything cuma

tengah siap2 nak pergi binding then pergi ofis sv.

But then he messaged said that,

datang ambil sign je pun boleh...nanti sambung buat.

Jadi tak fikir banyak, grab everything, every document,

then berdezuppp pergi ofis sv.

I binded my report after went back from his office.

Well, susah hati pula biar sv tunggu lama2 kan 

even actually memang dah lama betul.

Apapun, just this morning I submitted all the documents to faculty.

Alhamdulillah. Lega sikit rasa. Even after that

ada presentation which I didn't study anything for it.

Because why? Because semalam pukul 11 pun dah shut down atas katil.

Farahin tak tidur semalaman kot.

I guess it was already more than 24 hours I was awake.

Pagi ni bangun pun memang kepala, badan still rasa berat.

After all, Alhamdulillah report fyp dah submit.

Tinggal presentation next week.

Minta dipermudahkan semuanya, Inshaallah.

Till here, thank you for reading this.

I'll be back. See you soon.

xoxo =)

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Pinocchio (Taemin x Bewhy)

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Real intentions hidden under a smiling mask

it has turns cold, my gaze

the lies i tell you is expressionless

i am used to it

but i wanna be, wanna be

Under the white smile, the black lies

I pretend as if they were true

as if they were sincere

The truth that is hidden deeper inside

At this rate, I think I may lose my real self

I'd rather, someone else

To see right through me, Oh I

Real intentions hidden under a smiling mask
it has turns cold, my gaze
the lies i tell you is expressionless
i am used to it

Rather, I wanna be Pinocchio

I wanna be wanna be Pinocchio

I wanna be wanna be Pinocchio

I'm used to it

But I wanna be wanna be

My expression and attitude lack of transparency

Nobody sees through my fake attitude

I'm used to lying

where has my innocence gone

Standing between love and business

I don't even know my real intentions

My unconsciousness is like poison to me

My craving for innocence strangles me

Real intentions hidden under a smiling mask
it has turns cold, my gaze
the lies i tell you is expressionless
i am used to it

Rather, I wanna be Pinocchio
I wanna be wanna be Pinocchio
I wanna be wanna be Pinocchio
I'm used to it
But I wanna be wanna be

If I'm gonna live with a mask on
If I'm not going to be honest
I'd rather be
The innocent Pinocchio

If I'm gonna live with a mask on
If I'm not going to be honest
I'd rather be
The innocent Pinocchio

Real intentions hidden under a smiling mask
it has turns cold, my gaze
my lies even fool me
I'm used to it

Rather, I wanna be Pinocchio
I wanna be wanna be Pinocchio
I wanna be wanna be Pinocchio
I'm used to it
But I wanna be wanna be

Stuck between assignments, mini projects, and final year project. The only pill I take to keep my eyes open and my mind working, other than snacks and game is songs. So I let my youtube played for hours and then it reached to this clip. It was the clip from a show of this year named The Call and the Season 1 is already ended. The moment I listened to this song, I was so captivated.

Taemin is one my favorite singers. His songs and dances are all so breath taking. While Bewhy is the very first Korean rapper I know. I don't really listen to his work but I remember watching his live of Day Day. The combination of this duo was almost impossible but not anymore.

What amazed me most is the song. The poetic lyrics, the beat that is like sounds of calm heartbeat, all got me chained up. Guess anyone can relate to this song. About the lies and secret that we try so hard to keep yet at the same time we hope someone can just see it without saying anything. Like those lies and secrets are nothing to point out.

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Nano Punishment

Assalamualaikum...

I walk down the street we walked on numerously

not with you, but with other women

holding hands, walking.

As you can see, i'm well, i'm fine.

You can see that light

Ah, the red light in my heart has turned green

Baby, go there

Please, don't bother me

go there, go!

Do you think i'm still dwelling in the past, girl?

That you miss me, i'm sorry

that fool is no longer here.

If you want my body,

if you want to stop by,

call me, baby.

Love Love

I'll allow that time, ok.

I'll love you, ok.

I'll love you every time

why don't you know, baby?

Did you miss me?

The dead one, me?

It is the end now.

I watched you after it was over,

I still remember your walking back,

I pray you come back to me.

you, i wait.

That fool is no longer here.
If you want my body,
if you want to stop by,
call me, baby.
Love Love
I'll allow that time, ok.
I'll love you, ok.

Everything has changed.
This street too, has changed.
Let's turn the clock back together.
Why don't you came back?
What more do you want from me?
You will be abandoned
You are my toy to play with,
sick of you, it's over, ah, go!
you know, go there, go!
Do you think i'm still dwelling in the past, girl?
That you miss me, i'm sorry
that fool is no longer here.
If you want my body,
if you want to stop by,
call me, baby.
Love Love
I'll allow that time, ok.

Just a little sharing. I'm so in love on how the ego of the persona is expressed in this song. He's hurt but trying to move on. He's still hanging on a thin hope but trying to be more defensive for himself and let go. He make threats and sarcasms yet still in love. To me, this is just a struggle of someone who is still hanging on the past but trying hard to move on. The thought of hate is the best armor still cannot changes the heart that is used to love and be kind. At last, fact is fact. We face it and just do anything that we could.

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Default Mode

Assalamualaikum...

Hello, peeps! How're you all?

Me? I'm fine. But a bit mess up. Haha

Why? Because midsem break is over!!

My head starts getting dizzy now.

It seems there are a lot of work to do already.

Assignment, final year project, assignment, and more up coming assignments.

I'm still trying to reset myself now.

My student mode still lagging lol.

Thinking about tomorrow,

it feels like I'm losing half of my fully charged battery.

On Monday, I have two classes like usual. 2 hours each.

During break or free time, I may working on my assignment then.

The next day, I may have another weekly presentation.

I checked on the notes just now. Ugh!! I don't get any of it.

Which means I have to study it more and more and more more more!!

Yet now I just want to lie down and being lazy.

Cannot think more. I will just keep thinking of the same things tho.

I only wish and pray that this second half of the semester will be good and better.

I hope I will remain good too. My mental, my health. Inshaallah.

Now, I start to feel nervous. Phewww

Till here, may our day will be better day by day.

Thank you for coming and reading this.

Good luck!

xoxo =)

so what if i fell, if i bleed myself and catch in pain, gasp for air and choke in despair..it is just me trying to keep up with this unfamiliar life..to survive the fight that is impossible to retreat.

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