Gastrik

Assalamualaikum...

Hello, peeps! How are you?

How's your ramadhan?

Dah nak habis dah ni. Huhu

Hmm. I am very aware how bad my mind condition this semester.

And I am more aware of its effects. Physically.

Like, rambut mudah gugur and kulit kepala rosak.

Just about these few weeks my hair condition seems a bit better.

Other than those, I also started to experienced gastric like worst than I ever had.

It started a week before ramadhan and now it happened almost every day.

But still, not as worst as that previous week.

Pening sampai jalan terhuyung-hayang macam orang mabuk.

Muntah air, cirit-birit. Baring duduk semua tak kena.

Rasa macam bumi ni berputar lebih laju daripada biasa.

Hari ni pun cirit-birit. Dah lima kali keluar masuk toilet

baru terfikir nak sembang sini. Huhu

By the way, tomorrow will be my last paper.

I am not doing great with this one course.

Somehow, I know I have to repeat.

But still, I have to finish it all tomorrow.

Inshaallah.

Till then, goodluck on your last ramadhan.

And Eid Mubarak  =)

Mistakes are proof you are trying.

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Hujan

sementara guruh bergendang padu

sedang kilat menyambar laju

ketika langitnya mulai mendung

dan awan biru kian kelabu sendu

dipaku dingin yang merinding tenang

mencicit tumit tak terpijak bumi

lecak dan lopak terpecik ke buku lali

biar lebat hujan mentangisi alam

biar basah dibasuh air semesta

tetap aku sambut dengan senyuman

tunduk dan lihat arus yang berselisihan

dongak dan pandang titisan yang tak berkesudahan

tinggi jauh namun tetap jatuh ke tapak tangan

magis graviti dan keajaiban Tuhan

pesonanya tiada tndingan.

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Partner

Assalamualaikum...

Hi, pals! How're you doing? Semua dah tidur ke tu?

Well, sokay. Tidur tidur. Pagi nanti pun boleh ushar post ni. Haha

So, yeah. This late night nak sembang pasal partner.

Partner? Soulmate? Sama ke? Hmm.

Tapi bukan tu yang Farahin maksudkan.

Partner di sini referred to someone yang work in a team with us.

Biasalah. Dah nak2 habis sem ni, kita bagi muhasabah diri sikit ya.

Padahal, ada tiga lagi esaimen menganjing mohon barai. Hahahaha

Siang tadi Farahin ada presentation mini project.

Pulun dari hari selasa sampai khamis jam 2.30 petang,

tahu2 jadi team first sekali present and the most fascinating word

yang keluar dari mulut lecturer was "good".

Harapnya sungguhlah good. Pass lulus pun syukur.

Sebab rasanya barai je mini project tu. Kahkahkah

For this mini project, Farahin partner dengan seorang coursemate.

Tak ada la kenal sangat. Tak ada la rapat sanagat.

Tapi boleh tahan on-going jugalah kitowg ni.

Masa awal2 partner tu Farahin ada suggest kot2

nak tambah seorang lagi member, she said tak payahlah.

Also ada seorang coursemate juga, male roger dia

kot boleh masuk dalam team kitowg tapi dia reject mentah2.

Alasan sebab tak kenal. Haha

Okey. Farahin ikutkan je lah.

Until kelmarin, selasa tu dia ngadu demam.

Haa masa tu baru Farahin terasa kind of disadvantage.

Look. Kitowg berdua. Kalau salah seorang kecundang,

seorang lagi terpaksa tekan minyak lebih2.

Barai mata Farahin cuba siapkan mini project kitowg ni.

Baru je qada tidur lepas maghrib tadi.

Haa lah orang skip terawih. Hehehehe

Well, somehow I was experiencing ustress. Hahahaha

So, moral of the story is kalau boleh elakkan work in partner.

Memanglah macam sedap. Tak ramai orang.

Senang nak handle and communicate.

But to me it's actually lebih kepada cons.

Kalau boleh paling minimum members biarlah bertiga.

Kalau seorang kecundang, at least ada seorang backup each other.

Tak ada lah barai sangat.

Also, jangan sebab tak kenal, or opposite sex

kita tak nak tambah members.

Actually, I'm not quite really agreed

with her opinion about "tak kenal" and "sebab dia lelaki".

Tapi Farahin ikutkan sebab respect pendapat masing2.

To me, I am excited to have new persons, new members to get to know.

Opposite sex is much better to me. Sebab balance.

Maklum, laki perempuan mind twist lain2 kan.

Macam sem lepas Farahin satu team dengan all boys.

Boys otak simple. Janji benda siap and info padat. Tak payah grand2.

I was glad diowg pun tak pandang rendah sebab Farahin perempuan.

Diowg tak sisihkan Farahin. Tak kisah duduk sebaris sama2 even Farahin ganjil. Haha

Sempatlah juga jual pikap line dengan diowg. Hahahahaha gurau2

Apapun, Farahin harap dapat kenal new people next sem.

Bosanlah asyik satu group dengan orang yang sama.

Muka sama, perangai sama. Haa faham kan hahahaha

Sebab ada certain orang dia sedap buat kawan

tapi bila form in group for study chmistry tu macam kurenggg huhu.

Also, hope mental Farahin will back to its fine state.

It's worrisome tho. Semester ni Farahin memang break sangat. Entahlah.

Almost whole semester macam ni. Obviously, not good.

Till then, thank you for your time spent to read this all.

Godod night. Selamat berpuasa.

Sahurrr  sahurrrr

Bubye =)

"I am not who you think I am; I am not who I think I am;
I am who I think you think I am." - Thomas Cooley

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Weak Mind

Assalamualaikum...

Hello, peeps! Apa khabar semuanya?

Puasa macam mana? Masih perform tak setakat ni? Hihi

it have been weeks Farahin biar blog ni sunyi. Sunyi tak bermakna tak berkata-kata.

Ada je tapi tak terdaya nak diluahkan. Hmm. I think I am going to write some of it today.

Sementara menunggu waktu berbuka ni. Haha

Weak Mind. That's how I was for this almost whole semester.

Something wrong here and there until my productivity pun terganggu.

Also, Farahin banyak nangis this semester.

It was like all those hardships and impossibilities that I went through

from previous two years and before that hit me hard at the back of my head.

I felt dizzy, anxious, tired, regrets, fear, depressed, and for sure, weak.

I did triggered my mind with positivity but it seemed not really listening this time.

Just today another thought went through my mind.

I would like to withdraw a course.

It was like I tried to put a blame on it for me being like this.

Yet, I know it was just a false statement.

I know it was me in trouble here.

And I tried to pass it without to face it any longer.

This is my honesty. I am tired.

I want to get chill. I want to feel rest.

Dari awal bergelar mahasiswa and now dah nak habis tahun tiga,

this is the worst state I went and am going through.

It is like watching building collapse piece by pieece, slowly.

yet I am here trying to tell myself,

"it's okay. at least i am still breathing. at least i am still alive."

I am trying hard to feel grateful yet I feel bad more at the other side.

I don't feel great.

I know this feeling. It is like a sudden storm at the middle of bright day.

Even there is the sunlight, cannot help it not to feel scare.

I already feel this way since I was kid.

Tapi sebab Farahin masih budak pada ketika tu I had never put it into a deep thought.

I wish I can be that naive kid again. Growing is suck! That was what another my bad thought told me.

So, yeah. I think I can stop here.

Dah pukul tujuh pun. Selamat berbuka semua!

Bubye.

when you're happy, you enjoy the song.
when you're sad, you understand the lyrics.

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Assalamualaikum...

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Well, dah lama tak aktif join ga ni kan.

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Jom join sama. Klik je banner tu =)

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